I can still remember the day I cried after listening to my father's voice.

It rarely happens. As a matter of fact,it NEVER happened. I never cried from just listening to his voice. Never.

Why did I cried? Because I just realized how much I missed him.

It happened about a year ago when I was still in Pengkalan Hulu. I broke my specs(again) and was freaking scared to tell him. I knew he'd never let me buy a new one as it was MY fault. When Umi passed the phone to him, my tears immediately fell soon after hearing ayah's voice. No,not because I was scared. It was unexplainable. I didn't feel scared at all. But the tears could not stop falling and my voice sounded like I was having a flu.

It took me a while to realize the fact that I missed him a lot. His voice struck me as I hadn't heard it for a very long time. It was kind of shocking. Only until then that I realized my love towards my father is too deep. :)

As a lot of fathers and daughters out there, our relationship wasn't that close. We barely talk even if we're in the same room for hours. Still, I admire the way he taught us on behaving and being polite, but mostly about JANGAN MEMBAZIR. Hehe.. Because of him, I would always feel responsible to the food I eat and I MUST finish it!

When we were little, my sisters and I, we used to be close to him. I don't really understand what happened between there and now. He used to send me to school riding his old Kawasaki motorcycle when I was in Standard 1. On one fateful day, my tudung FLEW away and landed in the middle of the street! He let me off at the side for a while and went to take it back. Since then, I'd hold my tudung tight with me when riding a motorcycle. (=.=")

Last April, after I just received my paycheck, I gave RM100 to him although I knew that he didn't need it. (Of course,his paycheck is much higher than mine) He was very touched and framed it and put it in his office. I love how much a small thing to us can make another person a LOT happier. >.<

I should have done this blog on Father's day, but it just came rushing to me now. Having a lot of siblings meant that we have to GAIN what we want and cooperate for the harmony of the family, hehe. But of course there's a lot of quarreling happening. Once when we were little, I could not get the doll that I liked but instead, the three of us were bought the same one that my little sister chose. However, I really appreciate having my siblings as they had taught me a lot of things as well.

Ayah, Umi. I really appreciate that both of you tolerated with us and each other through all these years no matter how hard it was. I couldn't thank Allah enough for bringing me to this family, it's such a blessing. I know that we don't come from a wealthy family and Ayah worked hard to get to the place he is now. I appreciate all of that and I hope that it will last..

Thank you both for supporting me all this while and I hope that I'll never let both of you down. I hope ayah will not doubt our love for him even if we don't show it. I really love the feeling on ayah's birthday when all of us were really happy and we worked together on that bbq thing for the first time. I love that Ayah really liked our gifts. I really liked that Umi and Ayah are still happy with each other.

Just like Aisyah said, and I couldn't agree more with her.

"Dear Umi and Ayah.

You might not be the best Mother or Father in the world.

But if I have to redo my life all over,

I couldn't imagine having it any other way.

Thank you for everything. "

And this is honestly coming from your daughter, Nur Liana Binti Sharif.